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Monday, December 24, 2012

Prophesings of my soul

Yesterday I went to watch the "Joseph Smith Restoration" movie at temple square. I remembered watching this movie when I was younger and how much it had impacted me. Therefore I talked my mom into taking her, myself, and my sister up to Salt Lake to re-kindle the fires of our testimony.

(If you do not know who Joseph Smith is, or have any questions about the LDS church This link will take you to a handy dandy site that can hook you up!)

Wow. I did not cry that much the first time.

It was like my eyes had turned into a fountain that couldn't stop running.
Watching the trials of a man no greater or less than I for the sake of God gave me strength and inspiration.
I have a weakness of fearing what God will ask of me.
After Joseph Smith was tarred and feathered, I watched as he looked up at Emma covered in burns with tears in his eyes but a meek smile on his face mutter the words, "Maybe I'm meant to tread in deep water."

If there's one thing I know how to do, it's swim. Yet I find myself time and time again drowning in water knee deep. all I need is to stand.

God will not give us anything we can't handle. The more he puts in front of us, the more we are growing closer and more like him.

I am so thankful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I can't wait to be a missionary. I am so thankful for Joseph Smith and those that supported him in founding the gospel so that I and everyone around the world has the opportunity to live with our Heavenly Father and our family for eternity. 

I'm still alive

I promise I am. But as long as I am residing in good ol American Fork, the internet is only available to me in the form of Denny's and cellular device. And I don't know about you, but blogging on a cellphone is a no-go.

But be excited because I will be posting a video of my life changing haircut..and the blog post explaining what caused me to do something that was completely unexpected. Other than that I'm just living and trying to schedule a silly wisdom teeth removal visit that I am most definitely scared out of my mind about. If only the pediatric dentist office I work at could remove my teeth. Nope children don't have those yet. Maybe when humans "evolve" again scientists could throw in a no-wisdom-teeth gene to their genetic makeup...that's all.

Oh and I wore Christmas colors to church today cause I could :)

ps. I just remembered that awesome spiritual blog post I want to write about yay!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

The perks of married men

Sometimes marriage ruins a friendship.
But sometimes it doesn't.
I have a couple of really good guy friends.
I'm lucky enough to still be friends with them,
even after they are married.
And I cherish their friendship so very much because
with marriage or serious relationships, I know that
they have no angle or gain behind treating me well other
than to be my friend.

I found an old letter from one of my guy friends
from freshman year.
"I ache and yearn to see the fire in your eyes again."
It amazes that a person could care this much.
To be honest I do, but I've never considered others
maybe caring for me as well in a strictly platonic manner.

He still is in my life, and has been married for six months.

Another of my friends asked if he could possibly name his child
after me.
He then told me that boys are blind, and if any guy is looking for
the perfect girl, he'd only have to find me.

It's moments like these that remind me why
I have been single for so long, and why I will
be for a long while,
because I have so much growing to do,
if I am ever to deserve a guy as wonderful
as these men.

Real men see the good in all women,
not just the ones they are trying to court.
And they will make the most wonderful friends.

I am blessed.




Monday, November 19, 2012

Proud to be an AGGIE

It's not every day that your college's Girls soccer team, volleyball team and football team are WAC champs right in a row. It's also not every day when your basketball team wins their game while the football team takes home a huge victory. But most importantly,

It's not every day when you get to greet your football team as they get off the airplane. As in we literally stood right by the plane. I touched almost every player's hand. 
We then got pictures with local legend Wild Bill and Big Blue.

I've always wanted to stand under the wing of a plane and I did. Man the jets on the planes are huge. 
What a crazy awesome way to express my school spirit.
Stephanie, Mark, Big Blue, Wild Bill, Holly and I with the plane in the background

 

Friday, November 9, 2012

Memoirs

They were flying everywhere,
pieces of crumpled up papers soaring
across the room in all directions.
Giggles escaped the mouths of students,
who couldn't mask the thrill of acting seven again.

The throwing stopped.
I picked up one of the papers.
I met with the girl who belonged to that
bit of parchment.
She had picked up my paper too.

Once we read the contents of the papers
to each other- three facts about ourselves,
we went up and introduced each other to the class.

We finally all had our turn.
 "Alright well that's it for today.
Now that we know each other better,
I think you'll all feel more comfortable
Sharing your own personal stories."

I walked out of class,
repressed memories surfaced.
How will I write about a part of me
that's personal, when I have a line
drawn: Everything people knows about
me (most things),
and then the deep stuff.
The stuff few people know
and appreciate.

It's time to re-evalute the stories in my life.
I'm sure there's an inspiring one or two.





You've got mail

Receiving mail is such a joy.
I suppose when my mailbox starts
filling with bills, I won't feel this way as much,
but post cards and letters are so wonderful.

There is just nothing like snail mail.
While writing a letter, you find a bit of
someone you might not otherwise find.

Just like pictures, letters are constant,
frozen in time. The words are forever there.
Even if the person who sent the letters
changes, the letters won't.

You forever have a piece of them. Something
concrete and special and intimate.






Sunday, October 28, 2012

A glimpse into the future

So at the HOWL Halloween party tonight,
I had my tarot cards read for the first time.
I know, I know sketch.
But seriously though, it was cool.
Their are four cards, one for past, present, future, and personal life.

My past card was justice. But it was upside down meaning that I've
been dealing with something that has been done wrong to me that
I haven't been able to let go for some time ....hmmm.

My present was a king of some sort.
It represented a powerful male influence in my life
who had control over me and could help me in financial aspects.

My personal life card was the devil...oooo upside down.
Supposedly when he's upside down this means that there
is a problem, something plaguing me, but I already know
how to fix it, and will be able to.

My future card was judgement. Meaning that all of the
problems I've been facing will be lifted up and resolved.

Being applied all together, the male figure in my life will be able
to help me, and I will be able to relieve the problems I've been having
and have resolution.

This seems very vague and applicable to anything.
But to me, and the problem that I had focused on,
and the decision I was questioning whether to make,
it couldn't have been more specific. 

Oh and here's a picture taken from my web cam of me before leaving to the party


Friday, October 26, 2012

Written Paths

The more I try to be the author of my own fate, the more I realize that I'm merely an editor. I can make small adjustments, but the story has already been written. I keep thinking of things that I desperately want, and imagine I need. But I don't. There is one thing I will always need, and that's spiritual growth.

I can see myself missing small revelations the further I go into a path that I believe is mine to trod. And then It's a corn maze with a dead end. Why didn't I see this before? Is it because I didn't want to see it? If I had only picked up the map they handed out at the beginning, maybe I could have foreseen this. But there's no way to navigate through a corn maze with your eyes closed. Just like there is no way to stay on God's path if you refuse to listen, even when it's the silly simple things. They matter.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

I nominate the Grinch!

Just kidding. But I have been nominated for the the Liebster award!
 
I'm seriously flattered. My friend Allie nominated me for this great thing! So here's how it works. 

A LIEBSTER is a German word meaning dearest, sweetest, cutest. The award is given to up-and-coming bloggers with less than 200 followers. 


The rules: -Tell 11 things about yourself.
- Answer the questions the nominator asked, and create 11 questions for your nominees to answer.
- Choose 11 people and link them in your post.
- Go to their page and tell them. 
- No tag-backs. 

So....Me!
1. I hate Ginger jokes.
2. I adore the rain.
3. I adore Washington State and have family in Twilight territory.
4. I own a Claddagh ring.
5. I love my big band swing class.
6. Elephants are my favorite animal thanks to the Secret Garden.
7.  My favorite Bath and Body Works scent is dark kiss...mmm.
8. I'm a tutor.
9. I want to write a book someday about a genius idea I've had. And no I won't tell anyone until it's written.
10. I love fall and everything about it. 
11. I'm dying to go on a hayride.

Allie's Questions
 
1. What are you most afraid of? I'm most afraid of losing a loved one.

2. What moment would you go back and re-live again and again if you could? Anytime during the summer of 2010 would be wonderful.

3. What is your biggest pet peeve? It's not necessarily a pet peeve as much as an irritation I hate when people try to take advantage of me..or others. 

4. If you could eat one food EVERY day ALL day long, what would it be? Chocolate Molten Cake. mmmm

5. Which TV show do you never get sick of? How I Met Your Mother. Or Vampire Diaries. Pick your poison ;)

6. Yes or No - Do you like Honey Boo Boo Child? Oh my yes. She's like sunshine on a cloudy day.

7. When was the last time that you laughed so hard that you started to cry? Yesterday practically. We played a sort of charade/imitation game and watching a shy little freshman pucker his lips and shake his tail feathers did for me. I had a headache from laughing to give you an idea haha

8. What talent do you wish you had or were better at? Anything athletic. Probably basketball. 

9. Which popular song do your friends and family love, but that you can't stand? It used to be Call Me Maybe...

10. What is your dream vacation? Oh as if I haven't proclaimed this before..IRELAND!! And Scotland. I have this dream of standing on the Cliffs of Moher with my arms back Titanic style and a boys arms around me. As far as Scotland goes obviously The Edinburgh Castle, but less famous, the Isle of Skye Fairy Pools. 
 
11. What would your ultimate dream Halloween costume be? I'd have a high class outfit from the early 20th century complete with a large hat with a wrap around scarf connected Garnder Village has just what I'm looking for.
 
So My Questions...
1. In a perfect world, where do you see yourself in 10 years?
2. What makes you tick?
3. Favorite season? For fashion?
4. Night owl or early bird?
5. Favorite Author?
6. Favorite Holiday tradition?
7. Peaches or Nectarines?
8. What color is your toothbrush Do you dance?
9. What is the number one quality you seek for in a companion?
10. What is your most cherished possesion?
11. If you could follow anyone around for a day without them knowing who would it be?


And I nominate these lovely blogs (you know you want to read them!)





Saturday, October 13, 2012

Nitty Gritty Awesomeness

So things are getting pretty awesome around here.
First off, I started my papers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you know how long I have waited to be able to say that?
Heaven sent it's wonderful.

Getting down to the nitty gritty(nacho!) is a little less fun but still exciting.
Right now I'm figuring out how to have my wisdom teeth taken out in the least
expensive way possible. I signed up online to be contacted for Dr. Jean Brown research
which would pay me for my teeth! Crazy if it works out crossing my fingers.

So yesterday Stephanie and I were talking. Fall is my favorite season,
and this will be my last one for a while. So I came up with an idea,
a brilliant idea. Let's go to a haunted house?

Now Steph's funny when it comes to haunted houses. We could have driven
twenty minutes to one in the canyon. But she deemed that too scary.
So I convinced her to drive to Ogden instead! Mini road trip!

Right as we pulled up, two ladies were getting out of their car
(we were the only customers around). They were visiting from Texas.
Funny enough they were a brunette and red-head pair like Steph and I.

So we opted to stick together. Being the only customers(it had been raining) we got the entire experience. We could go as slow or as fast as we wanted, and all of the characters were focused on us.
My favorite part was the hick who said I looked like Shakira. haha.
Afterwards we chatted with the Adams Family up front for a while and took pictures (I'll get them from Steph).
All, in all, it was a wonderful spontaneous trip.


Sunday, October 7, 2012

The beginning of an era

Remember when I said my life has been very void of milestones for a while? Well I, and everyone who watched general conference, just became a part of a huge one for our church(check my believe tab)!!!! Heaven sent, I'm still in shock.

I had been planning on serving a mission for a while now. I turn 21 in May, and so I was planning on turning my papers in in February. Now all high school graduate boys can go at 18(used to be 19) and all girls can go at 19(used to be 21)!!! I've been contemplating on not going to school next semester and leaving earlier, or start my papers sooner but complete the school year.

 Immediately at the announcement, this was the odds for my choice
     - 99%:leaving ASAP, 1%: stick to original plans.
Right after that session was over:
      -65%:leaving ASAP, 35%: stick to original plans.
After talking to my mom my original plans gained 5%
After talking to my R.A. who is an R.M.
25%: leaving ASAP, 85% start my papers ASAP but finish out the school year.

And that is what I believe I will do. I need to keep my head on my shoulders through all of this and not sprint straight for the MTC. I watched the Press Conference Elder Holland and Nelson held directly after the session, and Elder Holland said that he wants the missionaries more prepared ahead of time than ever. I have a lot of reading in Preach My Gospel to do.

But what I want you to know about this day more than anything else, is that I have a firm testimony that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the true church. I love my Savior and Redeemer, Christ so much. 
 I want to serve a mission not because I'm going on 21 without any marriage prospects or impending career goals. I want to serve a mission, because I have a burning inside me that is filled with light and joy. Everyone deserves the chance to know what it feels like, what I'm feeling now, to know that you are an Eternal being. That you are sons and daughters of a King, a GOD. Everything that I am, every fiber, is converted to the truth that my Heavenly Father knows and loves me and all of his children. 

If you are reading this, know that as I'm writing I'm not only smiling from cheek to cheek, but from flesh to soul. 

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Every time I see someone happy together with their "other half," I don't feel jealous anymore. I'm excited; excited for my mission. I can't wait to take the next milestone step of my life preparing myself for an eternal companion. The best way to prepare for the spouse you desire is by being the person they deserve. Serving the Lord will not only be wonderful for the sheer joy of sharing the Gospel, but I will be preparing myself for the rest of my life. The last multiple milestones for me happened in a blur of just a couple months: graduation, first love, college, first true heartbreak. Everything after that really never amounted to the span of time between May-Octoboer 2010. I'm ready for my next milestone :). I'm ready for that milestone that will prepare me for eternal happiness :). I can't wait :).


Tuesday, September 11, 2012

I'm a Soph-ior


Yep I'm barely under the credits of a Junior so I'm a sophomore. But it's my third year and I'm less social than my sophomore year..(kind of) so I'm a Sophior.

And here's what this Sophior has been up to:

I've spent way too much time and calories at a wonderful Italian ice and custard place called Zeppes.

I dropped my math class. And it was the smart decision.
I'm now taking 3 PE classes(Big band swing, Celtic dance, and Pilates). Hopefully I'll burn off some of that wonderful Zeppes.

If you are ever in Logan you MUST I repeat must go to 2nd Damm in the wee-ish hours of the night.
There are campfires all around, guitar serenades that put Kumbuya to shame, a rope swing into the damm, and a boardwalk that reflects the moon and starlight. Yes you can even see the milky way.

Oh also you get to watch silly fools set themselves on fire.


So there's one last thing that has been a pretty awesome shining moment in my life..
Ute fans please dish up your humble pie....

WE BEAT THE UTES!!!!!!!!!!!!

video
 
And you wonder why you aren't an Aggie.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Beautiful blessings

Well if you read my post from last night, then you know I didn't have the picture perfect day I thought I would.
So coming on Sunday I felt a bit of unease.
I knew that I was happy to be able to teach a lesson my last week in the ward, but my normal amount of confidence in how well I might perform the lesson was uncharacteristically lacking.
Right as I was about to leave out the door I realized I had a wardrobe malfunction and had to change.
But enough about that let's get to the good stuff :)

So I came to church and the spirit hit me the second I opened the doors.
The congregation was just beginning the first verse of "The Spirit of God."
 I sang with power and conviction in worshiping my savior and I felt his presence
"Like a fire burning".

Then we had a powerhouse talk by the ward clerk.
Let's just say that I'll be on the lookout for more
"Wholesome recreational activities."

Then if I wasn't already on a high, the intermediate hymn was "Lead Kindly Light"
my all time favorite hymn.
The lyrics are all about trusting the lord blindly and giving in to let him guide your path instead of you guiding it."I do not ask to see the distant scene, one step enough for me.
I've been taking a lot of steps.

So 3rd hour came and it was my time to teach about observing and keeping the sabbath day holy.
This was an interesting topic for me, because my mom never really raised me with strict rules about the sabbath, in fact I don't there were any rules.
But I'll tell you that the impact of the spirit teaching the lesson was enough to almost knock you off of your feet.

Hours later my spiritual high was fading, and I was letting things get to me.
I started feeling like I wasn't really that worthwhile.

Then I found two papers taped to the door with my name. They were anonymous thank you notes for my lesson. I felt so grateful.
Then another one appeared on the doorstep with a similar message.

And then I got a text from a long lost married friend of mine just wanting to see how I was doing.

I saw the blessings of the Lord poured upon me in times of need.


Sunday, August 12, 2012

My thoughts during the closing ceremonies

- Pet Shop Boys: Their choice of attire scares me. Between the pointy hats, scaly black outfits, and chariots, I felt like I was seeing a terrible combination of the hunger games and the klu klux klan.

-One direction is British?

- John Lennon <3

- The Salt Lake closing ceremony had so much more of a moral message. "Let Your Light Shine"

- More..music

-Russel Brand, I wonder if Katy Perry is watching.

- Octopus?

- Tell me you didn't just ruin a Bee Gees classic with a featured rap.

-SPICE GIRLS!!!!!!! "If you wanna be my lover" I'm so happppyyyyy.
Wait is that the only Spice Girls song I remember? Oh well that was fun.

-Monty Python is pure joy
     -Nuns on skates flashing their British Drawers aren't bad either.

- How long is the crowd going to repeat everything the Spanish chicken says?

- Brazil knows how to entertain. Not to mention I'd love to take lessons from their soprano superstar.

-Goodbye Olympic torch. I'll miss the Olympics.

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Back to my roots

While in Wyoming, I was able to go to Fort Bridger.
If you are LDS, then there is a slight possibility that you
have heard of it (I hadn't). If you aren't then you might
have heard of it for its military camp purposes.

In any event, my designated friend and tour guide
and I walked around the grounds to see what
Fort Bridger was about.

It was fun to see all of the old Army houses
and old buildings.

To my surprise Fort Bridger was a place
the Mormon Pioneers stayed for years
until they were pushed out by the
government. When I read this my
heart just burned for these pioneers.
These were people who were willing
to give up everything to be able to
worship in their religion,
the religion that I am a part of.

My eyes welled up reading the history.
I am forever grateful to these brave souls.
I don't know what I would without the gospel
in my life.
I'm proud to be a Mormon.

How much are you willing to give up
for the things that are most important to you?

What is most important to you?

The cobble stone wall built by the mormons


Saturday, August 4, 2012

Lika a bird

Driving on a dirt road
not a person around.
I roll down my window,
but the birds are the only sound.

I open the sun roof breaking free
as I stand up and throw my arms
behind me.

I close my eyes as the car glides
forward and think
I'm flying.
 
Wyoming was a short but sweet get away.
I suggest you try it.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

A day of adventure.

Well let's start out with The Amazing Spiderman shall we??
Can you say dreeeamy?
I know I can.
I enjoyed seeing it with my lovely old friend from freshman year,
Kristin Groner.
She's a doll, so for any of you that attend BYU,
seek her out for a long lasting
non-superficial friendship.

 Oh one more thing about Mr. Spidey,
WHY DOES UNLCE BEN ALWAYS HAVE TO DIE????
My heart is never prepared.

The next thing on my list was to
go visit a boy
and work on my car!!

I'll tell you what really made me feel special.
When he had seven dollars to his name
and five of it was spent on my soup at
Chile's where he didn't eat anything.
The other two was spent for our
admission to the junkyard.
What a gent.

After visiting this boy,
It was off to go play with Sadie!!
Yaaaaaay!!

Now originally the plan
was to go to the Joshua Radin concert.
But things fell through.

It's ok though because when Sadie and I get
together, it's always fun and laughs no matter
what we are doing.

We bought some cute paper to work on our
"vintage friend photo albums"
Adorable right?
I thought so.

I even had time that night to watch
one of my abc family shows.

Now that's an adventure if I've ever heard of one.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Forever touched.

Yesterday I taught the lesson in relief society.
I was needless to say nervous.
There are so many older girls (there's about 50 girls in the class)
who have been on missions, or a actual teachers, etc. who are
more qualified to be teaching than me.

But when a girl came up to me after crying,
telling me how much she truly loved the lesson,
and how I am one of the best  relief society teachers
of all time, how she said it was meant to be that I had
this calling,

I can't describe the warmth that filled my heart.
The lesson was how to effectively share the Gospel.
What I mostly focussed on, was truly loving others.
 It is so important to sincerely care about the needs
and fears of others, and then find a way to reach out
and help.

When she gave me praise for my lesson,
she reached our her hand and touched my heart.

Go find someone who could use an uplift,
and find out how much you will feel lifted up.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

He's back

My good friend is back!

I saw him for the first time yesterday.
I can't tell you in the slightest where things are going,
But I can tell you that I woke up with butterflies.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Smelling the roses

Today at work, things started out rough for me.
I had this lady in the drive through upset at me.
She was asking a lot of pointed questions, and my
A.D.D. was getting in the way.
I was trying so hard to work with her,
but I'd start stuttering and losing moments
in time and she was just upset.
She asked me for my name.
I looked up forgetting where I
was and muttered the worst response,
"Why?"
She was even more upset, and I had to give my name.
I really didn't want my bosses to have complaints about me.

I started feeling really upset inside,
I felt bitter and defeated.
I lost track of the big picture until...

My friend walked in
and pointed out something,
a mini miracle.

Rainbow, or a rainband
It was just a strip of
Color in the sky that
happened to be viewable
from the small window view
from inside the store.
It hadn't even rained.

This mini miracle was a comfort
from God reminding me
that he's here with me;
every step of the way.

 



 

Day 17: The Something I wish I was great at

Well, being human, there are lots of things I wish I could be greater at.

Personality wise, I wish I was better at exercising patience.

Physically, I just wish I was better in sports in general.
Or I wish I was greater at trying them out.
I'm more afraid of sports and looking silly, than actually sucking at them.
I played my very first game of soccer with friends last year after a quick
one on one session of the basics.
For having never played, I honestly wasn't terrible.
I had never tried soccer before because I was scared to try.

All in all I wish I was great at Taking Chances.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Miss Sally

So this is a few weeks late, but...







I bought a car :).
She's a 1996 Saturn.
I paid 700$.
Yes that's right only 7.
After 20 years of not knowing
what it is like to have a car of my
own, It's still pretty shocking.

I feel so blessed.
I still catch myself
walking to the passenger's side
not realizing I'm the driver.

Day 16- Five greatest accomplishments

Its been a while since I've written, so there may be a catch up post or two. On that note, #15

Let's see my biggest accomplishments...
1. Graduating from high school.
2. Graduating from seminary.
3. Getting accepted to USU.
4. Getting an A- in Soils (the class my roommate told I never would pass).
5. Buying a car.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Day 15- Anamalia

If I were an animal....
I would be...
Does a mermaid count?
If it does I would be one.
You see, I've been swimming
since I was six months old.
Yep six months.
I was even in a Finnish documentary.

I started swim lessons at the top level,
and then went on to do swim team for a
couple years.
*side note*
You know that Dove commercial that says,
" This many girls will quit gymnastics,
dance, swim because they are insecure 
about their image."? That was me. 
So don't quit what you love because of 
how you think others perceive you.
*end side note*

 During swim I had this necklace.
It was in the shape of a dolphin.
If I touched it three times, 
Then I was a mermaid.

With my red hair,
Blue eyes,
Fair skin,
love of swimming
and singing,
and space case brain,
I'm convinced I'm Ariel.


All in all,
I'd be a mermaid.


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Cinderella

Did you ever wish you were a princess? When you were a child, did you ever watch Cinderella and think, "Oh what would I give to be her!"?

It's now, in my life, that I understand what Cinderella really had to go through before she got her happy ending. Feeling completely misunderstood, looked over, and unequal treatment is something that I can relate to.

I would give anything to not feel like Cinderella. It is harder than I ever imagined to have those that are closest to you make you feel so terrible. Now I don't have it as bad as she did, and I don't have it the worst.

 It's just that I learned that you should never wish you were someone else, or wish you had their life; because you never know what they are really going through.

I would give anything to not be Cinderella.



Day 14: five strengths

It's funny, because the day that I wrote my weaknesses, I felt strong. Today, when I'm writing my strengths, I feel very weak. Nevertheless, I will tell you that I still have strengths, and I will list them for you visual pleasure.

1. Empathy
2. Fast learner
3. Charismatic
4. Teachable
5. I Care

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Day 13: Five weaknesses

  This past semester, Elder Holland, from the quorum of the twelve of apostles in the Church of Latter Day Saints, came and did a fireside in the spectrum up at Utah State. This fireside was on one of our Prophets Joseph Smith(for more on him either visit my I believe tab or this website:). I have learned about him my entire life, but one thing I never learned, was his weaknesses. Elder Holland brought up two of his "weaknesses". These struck a chord with me that penetrated right to the very core of my being. Holland said Joseph was a pushover, always trying to make others happy. He also trusted people too quickly and was burned for it time and time again. These are two of my biggest "weaknesses". Holland went on to say that these "weaknesses" were not weaknesses at all, but strengths. It caused him to be able to love and serve those around him. It helped him to forgive and see the good in people. It caused the conversion of many souls.

What I realized after hearing this eye opening message, is that God really does show us our weaknesses but through him he will make them our strengths. Ether 12:27

I will now do the required list of five weaknesses, knowing that through my Heavenly Father, I can make them all my strengths.


1. Low motivation.
2. Easily Distracted.
3. Sensitive.
4. Worrisome.
5. Afraid of change.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Day 12: a typical day

Wake up around ten.
Read a book.
Go downstairs and watch some tv with mom.
Go to work.
Play with Sadie/go home and rest.
Take a hot bath with chamomile
while listening to celtic music.
Watch a show on hulu in bed.
Read scriptures & pray.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Day 11: ten pet peeves

I should have posted this before my cheery blog post, but as much as I don't feel like being a downer, I'll follow the challenge and give you my list of 10 pet peeves (which took weeks to come up with).

1.  Chewing with your mouth open.
2. Insincerity.
3. When people take my seat.
4. People who give dirty looks.
5. Self Centered people.
6. Manipulation.
7. Doors/drawers/cabinets left open.
8. When people are too busy drowning to realize the water's only knee deep.
9.  My metabolism(or lack there of).
10. Being ignored.

The little things

Hey!
For all those readers out there who missed me,
I'm baaaaaaaack!!!
I'm sure you are leaping for joy in your living rooms ;).
Well there's not really any easy way to recap a
20th birthday, a move out/back home/ finals yadda yadda,
So I'll just leave you with some of the little things
in the midst of big things that have made me happy

-The Logan Temple.
-Lilacs and how their smell carries on the spring breeze.
-Movies.
-Nail Polish.
-Angies.
-Angels(in the form of friends).
-Lack of extreme culture shock.
-Finishing the school year.
-Working again.
-Waking up in my room.
- Grass.
- Books.
-Letters(one left!).
- Baths.




When I have my own place, I'll have lavender bushes. :)

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Day 10: That embarrassing moment.

So I have this theory...
you know how whenever you ask someone 
what their most embarrassing moment is
they...draw a blank?

That's how I feel right now.
I have this theory that most embarrassing moments
are repressed from us.

I have an embarrassing moment though, 
if you want to read on.

It was the summer before my sophomore year,
and it was Cody, Josh and I on the tramp.
They were having a contest 
as to who could do the best tricks.
due to my lack of skills
I got to judge.

I did have one trick, 
I could a pretty good two touch.
So in my brand new pink birthday capri's,
I yelled, "Hey look what I can do!"


And then there was a riiiiiiiiiiiiiip.
my pants had split from my butt to my knees.
The boys couldn't stop laughing, 
and I had to wear Josh's pants.

I just remember sitting there 
waiting for them to bring me a blanket inside
and blushing as pink as my pants.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Day 9: Ten people who have influenced me

In no particular order, these are the ten people who first came to mind. I would just like to say before I list them, that there are countless people who have influenced my life, and I would like to thank them all.

1. My mother. She taught me to be a good person. She taught me to be selfless and forgiving.
2. My 9th grade Seminary teacher, for helping me regain my testimony.
3. Bishop Craig Roberts. He has cared for my family when no one else did, years after leaving his ward boundaries, and he being released from his calling.
4. My cousin Alex, for teaching me to love myself again, and giving me someone to share moments with that would have otherwise been painful and empty.
5. Kaitlyn Livingston. When at the end of a terrible friendship, she came in and pulled me out of the mud. She was there for me in moments when no one else would have been. I stand in awe at the strong and amazing person she is.
6. Michael White. He has been such a wonderful friend and example of selfless service.
7. J.T. for similar reasons as Michael.
8. My father. He showed me that it is never too late for a change of heart. He has grown so much, and I've been able to lean on him in ways I was never able to before.
9. Brennan Davis: for showing me what love was like, and giving me the chance to find an even better one.
10. Abbie Starkey, for teaching me to have a tougher skin, and helping me to learn that people express love in different ways.


Sunday, April 15, 2012

Day 8: 5 Passions

I find it harder than it should be to find five passions..hmmm
1. Singing
2. Loyalty
3. Ireland
4. Antique             
5. Becoming a better person.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Day 7: The dream career

When I was 11, I wanted to be an ambassador.
In high school I wanted to be an elementary school teacher.
My absolute dream job is to be a therapist through LDS family services, and help families grow stronger in the gospel.

Friday, April 13, 2012

The little things

I woke up this morning to my roommate bringing me breakfast in bed.
My study buddy made me dinner.
I didn't have to make a single meal today.
<3
There are always people out there that care,
 you just have to keep your eyes open long to see them.

The hardest thing I've ever been through..day 6

I've blogged about it before, and probably will again.
The hardest thing I ever went through, was losing my life-The life I had planned with the person whom I had been promised eternity. He cut that promise short by a few trillion years, and went and married my friend. But no sob story here. I'm still trucking. It happened October 13th 2011 and it still affects me, though a little bit less every day. I would never take back the love I had, because I learned what love was like, and I know exactly what to look forward to.