Loving the haters

Sometimes people are going to hurt you. Honest to goodness straight faced pain. They will tell you they care, but show in their actions that they are anything but caring. Then they make you believe that they are worth all the bad; the smallest glimpse of goodness will suffice. Well here's the thing:

They are worth it. 

Everyone is. The pain they cause you won't go away, until you've accepted to love them anyways. This does not mean that you should spend all of your time with them, in-fact you should spend as little time with them as possible. 

But,

When you feel yourself thinking hateful spiteful thoughts, stop them, and replace them with love. Think of that person and force yourself to wish them happiness. If you can do this, then you have guaranteed yourself happiness. Because when you try to punish them, you are only punishing yourself.

"I the Lord will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men." 

-Doctrine and Covenants 64:10

Sister Commeree

"You have been called to serve"...:)

Aren't those the most wonderful words you've ever read? I adore them.

So in case you didn't know, I am overjoyed to announce that I have been called to serve as a missionary of the United States of..I mean the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Days Saints(I really said that when I was reading my call I was so in shock). I have been called to the Reno Nevada mission and I leave May 29th!

So a couple cool facts about my mission
1. My favorite seminary teacher of all time will be in the mission presidency in my mission!!
2. Lake Tahoe is super close by.
3. I just got in contact with a girl in my stake who leaves the same day as me. We are destined to be friends.
4. I can visit my mission and keep all the connections I make because it's so close by.

The funny thing is when I tell people Reno, they have that two second face reaction of "Oh that sucks" and then catch themselves and get all excited and say how wonderful Reno will be.

I won't lie Reno wasn't my first choice. But when I read it, I could feel that it was right. I can just feel like it is exactly where I'm supposed to be. I can't wait it's ridiculous. But I'm trying to finish finals and move home while only given less than 6 weeks to prepare. So I have SO much to do. If you would like to see me beforehand I'd love to spare some time for you :).

Everyone waiting for the big moment!

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Right before I opened it!

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Infinite part 2

I realized I never published this post! It's a bit old, but it's probably one of my favorite writings yet. Enjoy!

With the detour complete we made it to one of my most favorite places:
Lava Hot Springs.
 I've never seen the hot pots in such a way before.
The air was so cold that steam blew through the
air mimicking the fog we had just driven through.
I let my muscles relax and felt my body uncoil
into a limp rag doll-like frame.

After wading through crowds of faces covered by steam,
I made it to the farthest and hottest pool.

The scenery was most beautiful here.
Snow covered benches, hills, and gazebos
made me feel like I was in some winter-wonderland.

I laid on my back gazing through the steam to where the moon
shone down on me.
I closed my eyes and let myself be.
I felt a state of inner-awareness that is hard to find.

When I sat up, I realized that through the steam
the other side of the pool wasn't visible except
in small moments.

This got me thinking.
I suddenly felt comforted by the scenery
forming into a metaphor before me.

The steam, the fog, it it's all the same.
My life has plenty of it.
Plenty of not being able to see where I'm headed.
But there are moments where I get a glance at the other side,
where I can see the end goal.
"Keep thou my feet, I do not ask to see the distant scene,
one step enough for me."
Lead Kindly Light

We're moving on up!!

These mission papers have been horrendously slow. But finally I can feel the progress. The last documentation my bishop needed is in process and should be sent to him within the week. Prospectively speaking, I should have my papers in within the next two weeks. I really think it's going to happen this time. I can feel that it's finally my turn. I'm ready to take on the world.

Some nights

Some nights you come home, and you don't make it two steps in the door without your roommate running to you, because she can tell.
Some nights you try to make it to the living room to study, but you only make it to the kitchen floor.
But some nights the kitchen floor isn't so lonely, because everyone is sitting there too.

Infinite

Singing to the radio with miles and miles behind us, the girl trip had finally started.
Fog, snow and darkness engulfed our surroundings to a serene atmosphere
that remained constant. It wasn't until an extra hour had passed before we
realized that we were on the complete wrong interstate.
That's when the fun started.

Us three beautiful doe-eyed girls pulled off onto a so-called-highway without
a single person in sight. With the fog thickening, it was almost as if we were
entering the plot line in a predictable scary movie.


That only lasted for minutes. Then we really took in the scenery around us.
We could see so many stars.
The mountains seemed stronger, more elegant.
We stopped in the middle of the street
with no worry of oncoming traffic.

We ran around the car arms out stretched, breath clouded,
and became the free beings we were intended to be.

Calming ourselves, we laid down in the middle of the road.
I looked up at everything around me. I felt like I was a part of it.
Instead of my normal reaction to see the world through my own eyes,
I saw the world from it's.

The stillness was deafening.
I looked at the girls and declared in a passionate whisper,
"We're infinite."
It's moments like these when I realize my existence isn't some mere chance.
I'm a part of something greater, eternal.
We all are.
Knowing this changes..everything.

Ouch.

For the first time in history..
I missed all of my classes on the first day of school.
I guess having bruises and swelling all over your face,
and lortab to drown it out makes school seem kind of..
impossible?
Lucky for me I have friends in almost all of my classes and
I got contact with the teacher for the other.
But seriously..I will never ever take brushing my
teeth for granted again.
Also the show gossip girl is my new favorite drugged up past time.