Infinite part 2

I realized I never published this post! It's a bit old, but it's probably one of my favorite writings yet. Enjoy!

With the detour complete we made it to one of my most favorite places:
Lava Hot Springs.
 I've never seen the hot pots in such a way before.
The air was so cold that steam blew through the
air mimicking the fog we had just driven through.
I let my muscles relax and felt my body uncoil
into a limp rag doll-like frame.

After wading through crowds of faces covered by steam,
I made it to the farthest and hottest pool.

The scenery was most beautiful here.
Snow covered benches, hills, and gazebos
made me feel like I was in some winter-wonderland.

I laid on my back gazing through the steam to where the moon
shone down on me.
I closed my eyes and let myself be.
I felt a state of inner-awareness that is hard to find.

When I sat up, I realized that through the steam
the other side of the pool wasn't visible except
in small moments.

This got me thinking.
I suddenly felt comforted by the scenery
forming into a metaphor before me.

The steam, the fog, it it's all the same.
My life has plenty of it.
Plenty of not being able to see where I'm headed.
But there are moments where I get a glance at the other side,
where I can see the end goal.
"Keep thou my feet, I do not ask to see the distant scene,
one step enough for me."
Lead Kindly Light

We're moving on up!!

These mission papers have been horrendously slow. But finally I can feel the progress. The last documentation my bishop needed is in process and should be sent to him within the week. Prospectively speaking, I should have my papers in within the next two weeks. I really think it's going to happen this time. I can feel that it's finally my turn. I'm ready to take on the world.

Some nights

Some nights you come home, and you don't make it two steps in the door without your roommate running to you, because she can tell.
Some nights you try to make it to the living room to study, but you only make it to the kitchen floor.
But some nights the kitchen floor isn't so lonely, because everyone is sitting there too.

Infinite

Singing to the radio with miles and miles behind us, the girl trip had finally started.
Fog, snow and darkness engulfed our surroundings to a serene atmosphere
that remained constant. It wasn't until an extra hour had passed before we
realized that we were on the complete wrong interstate.
That's when the fun started.

Us three beautiful doe-eyed girls pulled off onto a so-called-highway without
a single person in sight. With the fog thickening, it was almost as if we were
entering the plot line in a predictable scary movie.


That only lasted for minutes. Then we really took in the scenery around us.
We could see so many stars.
The mountains seemed stronger, more elegant.
We stopped in the middle of the street
with no worry of oncoming traffic.

We ran around the car arms out stretched, breath clouded,
and became the free beings we were intended to be.

Calming ourselves, we laid down in the middle of the road.
I looked up at everything around me. I felt like I was a part of it.
Instead of my normal reaction to see the world through my own eyes,
I saw the world from it's.

The stillness was deafening.
I looked at the girls and declared in a passionate whisper,
"We're infinite."
It's moments like these when I realize my existence isn't some mere chance.
I'm a part of something greater, eternal.
We all are.
Knowing this changes..everything.

Ouch.

For the first time in history..
I missed all of my classes on the first day of school.
I guess having bruises and swelling all over your face,
and lortab to drown it out makes school seem kind of..
impossible?
Lucky for me I have friends in almost all of my classes and
I got contact with the teacher for the other.
But seriously..I will never ever take brushing my
teeth for granted again.
Also the show gossip girl is my new favorite drugged up past time.

Prophesings of my soul

Yesterday I went to watch the "Joseph Smith Restoration" movie at temple square. I remembered watching this movie when I was younger and how much it had impacted me. Therefore I talked my mom into taking her, myself, and my sister up to Salt Lake to re-kindle the fires of our testimony.

(If you do not know who Joseph Smith is, or have any questions about the LDS church This link will take you to a handy dandy site that can hook you up!)

Wow. I did not cry that much the first time.

It was like my eyes had turned into a fountain that couldn't stop running.
Watching the trials of a man no greater or less than I for the sake of God gave me strength and inspiration.
I have a weakness of fearing what God will ask of me.
After Joseph Smith was tarred and feathered, I watched as he looked up at Emma covered in burns with tears in his eyes but a meek smile on his face mutter the words, "Maybe I'm meant to tread in deep water."

If there's one thing I know how to do, it's swim. Yet I find myself time and time again drowning in water knee deep. all I need is to stand.

God will not give us anything we can't handle. The more he puts in front of us, the more we are growing closer and more like him.

I am so thankful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I can't wait to be a missionary. I am so thankful for Joseph Smith and those that supported him in founding the gospel so that I and everyone around the world has the opportunity to live with our Heavenly Father and our family for eternity. 

I'm still alive

I promise I am. But as long as I am residing in good ol American Fork, the internet is only available to me in the form of Denny's and cellular device. And I don't know about you, but blogging on a cellphone is a no-go.

But be excited because I will be posting a video of my life changing haircut..and the blog post explaining what caused me to do something that was completely unexpected. Other than that I'm just living and trying to schedule a silly wisdom teeth removal visit that I am most definitely scared out of my mind about. If only the pediatric dentist office I work at could remove my teeth. Nope children don't have those yet. Maybe when humans "evolve" again scientists could throw in a no-wisdom-teeth gene to their genetic makeup...that's all.

Oh and I wore Christmas colors to church today cause I could :)

ps. I just remembered that awesome spiritual blog post I want to write about yay!